WINTER WONDERLAND!

Holidays passed

One day at a time, I'm still here.  My mind messes up a lot.  They say part of the grieving process.  Mostly my memory, but I do dumb things, too.  Back into most of my volunteer organizations.

Had nice holidays.  Each daughter and grandkid visited.  That was great!  They are all so nurturing and loving.

It's a new year.  2015 here I come.  The past behind me, today happening now, and future will take care of itself.

I have made plans to go to Juneau, Alaska, for a week in May.  Looking forward to seeing the glaciers before they melt.  Got a real cheap miracle flight from Lexington to Juneau!!  Will stay in hostel:  12/day and 1 chore.  Will do a  day boat trip (was even given great discount!) to see Glaciers calving and whales.  Rest of the time will backpack the trails.  Already making list of minimum to take.  Have talked over an hour with hostel lady, boat lady, and visitors center lady, and we are all great friends.  Can't wait to see each other in person.

I miss my soulmate every second of every day, but I feel him with me often. He comforts and encourages me.

That's all for now.  Thanx for reading!  mary ann  ps:  Blake's cat, Foster, died.  cancer.  Buried him in back yard with his little Christmas stocking marking his grave.  Blake says they are together and happy and at peace.   So it's just Hobo Kitty and Daisy Dog and me now.  Hobo and Daisy miss Pa too, and get along with each other!

3 1/2 months later

I forgot about this blog.  I'm still here.  One day at a time.  Took a trip to NC to visit daughter, Lisa, who relocated from Austin, Tx.  Mountains were beautiful in the fall.  I raked lots of truckloads of leaves here and took them to the country.

I made a quilt of his tshirts and I sleep under it every night.

It's muddy, rainy, darkish winter days now here in KY, but kind of a still peace about it all.

I made some crafts and even did a craft fair for the first time in 40 years.  Was kinda fun.

Sometimes I'm in a fog.  I have paid bills twice or to the wrong billers.  I get my days mixed up.   Sometimes I cry without warning, but I laugh some too.  Spend some time with friends, volunteer organizations, and my dog, Daisy, and my cats, Hobo and Foster, who live with me.

Blake's Memorial Library across the hall with his shrine-like table of memories.

Have the plants there and in the hall for winter.

I sold his bike to one of his friends and park my car in the garage next to my bike.

I just really miss him a lot, but I feel he is with me, too, comforting and encouraging me.

The grandchildren are wonderful.

Blake flies with angels now

Blake's Obituary in Lebanon Enterprise

Blake took flight. His ashes in our lake. RIP Blake.

Blake took flight on Fri, 8.15.14 at 11:11am. This morning (Aug 21, Thur) I felt Blake saying, "Let's go to the cabin, MA. I want to go to the lake." We took our last ride to the country together with our Daisy Dog and Pa's ashes in the truck seat next to me as we listened to Nat King Cole's love songs on an old tape. I stopped to get his very favorite thing in Raywick as we often did, Judy Blandford's baloney sandwich. Together we went to our lake ( fondly known as "Blake's Lake."),and as we arrived, the sun came out. Into his lake, I sprinkled his ashes along with his last baloney sandwich. I read his favorite Latvian verse and saying which were also favorites of his Grandfather Ohsol. I finished with a saying Blake often said: " Surely goodness and mercy will follow us for the rest of our lives, and we will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." We shared a very special private love and this was our very special private goodbye. He will live on forever in my heart.

another chapter in our crazy lives

Blake was walking around the house talking and singing most of the night! I was of course sleepless & now am wide awake. He just fell asleep and is now happily snoring! and laughing in his sleep!! ahhhhh! Another chapter in our crazy journey. hahaha grrrr